Really Never Knew Me

You really never knew me
at all.

A relationship built on mutual fetish
Ideals of what we hoped the other one was
Clashing, in denial
agree to disagree
Until the day we can't do it anymore.

Finding it hard to still be friends
as we realize
we were never really friends.
A relationship built on lust
rather than on love
breaks apart to leave passive-aggressive
I-want-you-I-can't-stand-you-I-want
what-I-wish-you-were-what-I-told-myself
we-don't-even-like-each-other-let's
have-sex-just-once-more
every-week. and again.

It hurts when you push me away
even though it hurts when you're around
I know you're no good for me
I want to end on good terms
- Hard to do
when you don't care about me
about trying to resolve our disputes
and be decent to each other.

But really wasn't that the whole point all along
I think you act like a jerk
and you disagree
or just don't care either way.

Why am I chasing this...

You really never knew me
at all.