Dressed With Pain

Dressed With Pain by Supernova-Exploding

I'm trying to remember
how I knew it felt
Your arm around my shoulder
sweaty glee with concert adrenaline.

I'm trying to push away
how it must have felt
Your body on river ice
crumpled and crusted with frozen blood.

I'm trying to embrace
how I knew it felt
The loving friendship we shared
such admiration for one another.

I'm trying to resist
how it must have felt
Torn apart at the end
trapped alone with your schizophrenia.

I'm trying to hold it together
you can't see how hard it is
Now that you have gone away
I am desperate, alone with my grief.

You were trying to hold it together
I didn't see how hard it was
I'd already gone away
left you desperate, alone with your fears.

Every photo, painting, NIN or Tool song
slams my breath away
Triggers I cannot escape
loving memories now dressed with pain.

I miss you.