Price I Pay

To have somebody care as much about me as I care about them

(the impossible dream)

Act tough, indifferent, impenetrable

(to protect my fragile ego)

Never fear, never cry, never doubt myself, never care

(keep up the mask)

Shut you out, time and time again

(it’s too easy for you to hurt me)

So alone, self-reliant and cold

(there’s no other way)

Miss my God

(feel so detached and lost)

Keep to myself

(a nicer way to say I have no friends)

Not a child

(not really human at all…another life lost)

Not anything you’d understand

(but I don’t understand it either)

A life swathed in shadows

(watch me sleepwalk through it)

You think that I’m down again

(and for once you’re right)

I’ll never admit to anything

(there’s nothing you can do)

To make it short, I’m breaking down

(trying to help myself)

Drifting out, fading away

(you could never help me)

This is the hell I’ve put myself in

(better than the ones you shoved down my throat)

And now this is the price I pay

(freedom’s never free).